White Tulips by ann marquette
This morning started strange as I woke early from a stressful dream. Thankfully I went back to finish my night in a restful sleep.
As I was enjoying my morning coffee, the A Ha moment arrived. I realized a major shift, or turn on my path of transition, and the path God has been guiding me toward. More like a message that God was telling me I had made a couple good turns in the right direction. It is with much gratitude for His guidance that I am making the transitions.
I have known for a long time that God wants me to write, and there is a special place he wants me to be. I realized a few months ago that there is a part of me needing change before some of that journey can come to pass.
Some of the healing has happened recently. Forgiveness is a huge need in our lives, and doing so will open doors for us we would not have imagined. Forgiving also heals us. In addition to forgiving others, we need to forgive ourselves for any wrongs we have done to others. I’ve asked God to tell me if there is anyone I forgot to forgive. Not hearing anything in that direction, I asked to be shown any wrongs I have done to others, even if they were unintentional. He showed me three. I did apologize, and in the process I grew and changed some more. I have been working most of my life to be a better person, to be the person God wants me to be.
I have been out of a paying job for almost two years. Whenever I would get His message to keep writing, I would smile and say “sounds great, but it doesn’t pay me!” Figuring I needed to find another source of income to supplement another source, I attended many networking meetings, did job searches and applied for jobs. I had interviews and almost joyfully accepted not being offered the jobs. Truthfully, I did not want to get back into the typical corporate world as I’d been in for many years.
Some friends, those not in my position, would “suggest” that I should go out and get any job, no matter what. Other unemployed would hear the same thing. And the constant question “Well, how is the job hunt going?”
Like the majority of unemployed since our economy crashed, we realized this time was a gift. While sharing good news and blessings in our networking sessions, we would tell of opportunities to help family and/or friends in need. Had we been working we would not have been available. We also shared our journey to find that which would not just provide an income, but work that would bring us joy by doing something we love, something we feel good about which would be of value to others, to our world. It was time to also evaluate the kind of culture, working environment we would enjoy, where we would thrive and blossom.
One time I mentioned my dream work environment to someone who is in a rather high-powered job and very “professional” environment and she told me that there is no such place like I described. Actually there are places like that which I know of and heard about.
The staffing agency which has gotten me work before called a couple of weeks ago telling me of a part-time job they thought I might like. I said yes when they asked if they could submit my resume. Shortly after I was invited to interview with the company. A couple of hours after my interview the agency called to say the company wanted me. I started last Monday and it is the kind of environment I have been wanting. It is a small office, but with some staff who work from other locations. They are a great group of people who really care about each other. The culture is more casual and easy going; and it is only one mile from where I live.
Although the job is for some administrative help, they were excited and chose me because I am a writer and have proofreading skills. So, the best part is a chance I may be able to turn the job into doing that which would engage me more in my writing life.
Thank you God for your blessings.
Ann Marquette 