Thanksgiving and Birthday Blessing…Gift of Tears

It has been a blessed year with so much to be grateful for, on this Thanksgiving and my birthday.

Every few years Thanksgiving falls on my birthday, but this year my birthday was the day after Thanksgiving.

On my birthday something happened which made me realize there is something special I have to be grateful for…the gift of tears.

Most of my life I cried very easily.  The tears were not just for sadness, hurt or pain; but many times because I heard or saw special happy moments in the lives of others.  Several years ago there were times when I cried a lot due to sadness.  One night I got home from spending an evening with others where something had happened.  When I got home I got on my knees and sobbed for several minutes for the pain in my heart.  Then I stopped abruptly and told God I would never cry again because it did no good.

Over the years since then I often felt like crying, whether for something sad or something happy.  I could feel the tears inside, but the physical tears never came.   Through that time I was inspired to write…

CRYSTAL TEARS

 By Ann Marquette

It has been so very long
Since tears have flowed freely

As each tear cannot find its way free
It crystallizes within this heart of mine

So many times I feel the pain
Of the crystal tears piercing my heart

I wonder how long will it be
Before the pain is washed away

What will it take to melt these crystal tears
Allowing them to flow freely once more.

©February 2004
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A few years ago I began to wish those tears would flow again, but this time I prayed asking God that should the time come for me to be able to shed actual tears that it would begin with happy tears.

Recently I’ve heard and seen some beautiful real life stories and each time real tears of joy flowed.

It was only on my birthday when I thanked God for letting me live that I realized He was gifting me again with tears, beginning with tears of joy.

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I believe, I believe, I believe

This really happened to me and wish everyone could experience this special blessing.

Ann Marquette

Dear God,
 
I believe You are my Heavenly Father who loves, and cares, and provides for me. I believe Your Holy Spirit lives in me and I in You. I believe Your son  Jesus is always with me, guiding, protecting, and inspiring me.

 I believe it is time to tell the true story about the spiritual experience You blessed me with in 1991, as I am thinking about it now.

 I was in my bedroom writing.  I don’t remember what it was or if it was to someone, but I do remember a man I had recently met came to mind. 

 As I sat at the beautiful old desk that was in my room and writing, all of a sudden I felt something happen to me that was truly miraculous.  It was so powerful that I had to hold on to the desk with both hands.  Tears fell like…

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Start of a New Beginning – Day 3

I meant to post this last night, but the day got away from me 🙂

Last year on November 16th it was finally MOVING DAY to Greenville SC 🙂 

We got up early as my friends Becky and Scott would arrive shortly.  They were helping with the move.  Once they arrived we loaded the UHaul enclosed trailer I rented the day before, which the guys hitched up to Scott’s big red shiny pickup.  And we packed my SUV to the roof.  My friend and neighbor, Susan also helped with the loading even though she could make the trip with us.

Then off we went, on the two-hour HAPPY drive to my new home.

Once here I showed Becky and Scott my apartment, then the four of us got everything unloaded.  They had to head back to Georgia for a family event so they couldn’t join me and my brother for lunch.  At the moment I cannot remember where John and I went for lunch.  I think we went downtown, then back here to do some unpacking and setup the air mattresses so they would be ready for us to crash that night.

In the evening we met my local friends Carole and Dan at Cheddars for dinner.  It was great to introduce them and John to each other.  It was also the first time for all of us to eat at a Cheddars restaurant.  It was very good and reasonably priced.  It was a lovely evening celebrating my first night in my new home (the apartment AND the city of Greenville).  So glad my brother was here with me.

The next morning we had breakfast at Waffle House, relaxed a bit, unpacked a few more things before driving him to the Greenville-Spartanburg airport for his flight home to Michigan.  I hated to see him go, but he had family and a job to get back to.

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Start of a New Beginning – Day 2

Day 2, one year ago.  This was the day of closing on the sale of my townhouse in Georgia!

Sold House in GA

After the closing that morning my brother and I went to lunch.  He then helped me to get all the boxes moved from upstairs to downstairs and organize them for easier loading the next morning for the move to Greenville.

That evening we met three of my gal friends at a restaurant for dinner.  This was the first time my brother and my friends met each other. We had a great time talking and laughing.  It wasn’t goodbyes since I would only be two hours away.

Back at the house we relaxed and watched a little TV before going to sleep for the last time in that house.  Don’t think I got much sleep that night for the excitement of finally being able to move to Greenville.

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Start of a New Beginning

One year ago today, November 14th, I drove to Greenville SC…the place I found a few years before as the place I knew I belonged…HOME.  I met with the manager of The Tapestry to walk through the brand new apartment I had selected to be mine.  After the walk through and making notes of a few things to be done before my full move in two days later, we went through all the paperwork and signed where needed while  the Charter tech connected me up with internet service.

It was exciting to receive the keys to my new home.  I moved in all the boxes I brought with me from Georgia.

Later I picked up my brother who had flown in from Michigan.  We stopped back at the apartment so I could show him my place and the community, then we went downtown so I could show him around and had dinner at the Carolina Ale House before driving back to Georgia.

The best part of this was having my brother with me for a few days.

***Tell me about a new beginning you have had in your life.

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Time for Letting Go

Christmas, or anytime,  is a great time to give this gift, not only to the other person(s), but also to ourselves. Time for healing.  

 

One of the most painful things we have to do in our lives is Letting Go.

Sometimes it is Letting Go of things…material things which mean a lot to us, because of sentimental value.

It may mean Letting Go of feelings. When we hold sadness inside, and try to mask it with only a show of happiness, it is better to feel the sadness so it washes through us then Let it Go. A good cry can be cleansing.

One of the best things to do in our lives is Letting Go of anger and hurt caused by others. We need to find it in our hearts to forgive lovingly. The anger and hurt we hold inside only poisons us, and causes us to allow that person or persons to control our feelings. I have heard of people who have been hurt far worse than I could ever imagine, yet they found it in their hearts to forgive, with love, and let go. They found freedom within that allowed them to soar like an eagle. I have found peace by forgiving others who have hurt me, and I pray they have found peace within themselves.

Sometimes, we have to let go of someone we care for very deeply when we realize that person does not care for us in the same way. Maybe it is best to leave them remembering us with whatever kind of feeling they do have for us. It may not be possible to hide our own deeper feelings for that person, which could make their life uncomfortable. Letting Go may be the best gift we can give them because they may realize how we feel, yet care enough not to want to hurt us.

Even when we know a relationship is not right, on both sides, or one person has a doubt about it, it is hard to let go of something that seems secure. We often accept less than the best because we can’t bear to let go.

There are occasions when we feel something wonderful for someone, but we don’t express it for fear of being rejected. Sometimes our feelings will be rejected. Yet, what if we withhold it from the one person who could very well be that One Special Someone in our lives and they too have been afraid to express their true feelings, or don’t even realize their true feelings yet! How sad that we may miss The Best for fear of Letting Go of the expression of those feelings.

Whatever the reason, or situation, it is never easy Letting Go.

©December 19, 2007

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